Fear of...
Posted by Rizal | Posted in Fear Of... | Posted on 3:30 AM
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"I'm diffident about speaking in class..."
"I am bashful and know people would look at me if I speak... I feel nervous..."
The law lecturer speaks, and this guy writes his words summarily. However, when the lecturer starts to speed up like JayZ, the poor guy falls into a pit of hell. A bundle of questions pops into his messed mind: "Oh my, I can't catch up. Repeat, sir ! Sir, can you dictate back the citation of the case, or spell out the names?" But always and always, such questions remain in his heart without being spoken out in the class, what's more in the lecturer's room. Sometimes, he raises his voice (usually in form of grunts and mumbles) but it is so indistinct that the lecturer fails to take notice of it. Ever and anon, his questions become loud enough but only within the hearing of another student adjacent to him. As a result, his notes become a jumble. This guy may want to counter argue by saying that he can refer to his friends'. Fine, but what if those friends are also like him?
Nowadays younger law students usually feel better to be in the same class with cops, especially when the lecturers are incarnations of devils. Why? Of course to place a hope that in case the young ones are not successful in their note-taking, the cops will raise their ands and ask: "Sir, could you repeat that point?" Hmm, looks like being young, you are too petrified to move your own lips.
What do you think your lecturers are? Evil spirit that will gobble you up? They are human beings like you too, and they are better than you (emm, with few exceptions of course!) just because they have a certain degree of knowledge that you do not know. If you have any doubt, ask. One cannot say: "Ah, I can refer to the books" since not everything the lecturers say can be found in them. What's more if the guy happens to be someone who relies solely on such notes!
You would not be able to stand tall a few years from now if you fail to cure your sole Achilles's heel. To those who intend to go into pupillage, I do not know what curse will then be blurted out from your masters due to your attitude. Perhaps they will say: "*** students? Save for a number of hardworking limbs, the rest are totally nuts!" To those who choose other professions, do you think your employers or clients or customers like to deal with scaredy-cats?
You may wish to contest this by stating this garbage view that you will start learning only during your pupillage. It is not learning out there my dear, it is already training. Learning is to be done here at the university. If you still want to go along with that view, go ahead but beware of the aftermath.
I know it is harsh to speak this way, but if I don't who else will remind you? It is better to make brilliant noise rather than being densely quiet. The vehicle is with you, and I hope you will find the right way from now. Forsake the olden days where students were expected to be dangerously demure but dumb. From now on, if the lecturer rambles on and on about things that you do not understand, speak up and don't remain thick. Remember, you are **** and cowardice is not your type. But, if you choose to be a sissy, what else can I say?
Forgive me.
